Adam

Adam called me yesterday from Mississippi. I was so happy just to hear his voice and hear him laugh, it was just such a relief. I hadn't been able to talk to him since his birthday, March 13th. It was completely unexpected and out of the blue, but he made my day and I told him as such. I told him all about formal and my dress and my hair, and I know these are things he doesn't necessarily care about because he's a guy but he listened, because he knows it mattered to me. Everything was like it used to be, and it put me at ease a little because I was worried he'd somehow be different having been gone for these past few months. His unit is going to California in a few days to run through everything they've learned these past few months and he will be home in the first part of June, probably around the 8th. June 8th can not come fast enough for me, but at the same time it will be here far too soon, because I know two weeks after that he will be overseas, in Iraq, where I won't even be able to talk to him on the phone. This scares me to death. But he was in a good mood and upbeat yesterday, teasing me and giving me shit like he usually does. I honestly do not know what I will do when he leaves - granted, he's been gone since January, but right now he is just a phone call away. Once he leaves...My lungs tighten and my stomach twists up in knots just thinking about it. I am so proud of him though, because I know he is far more courageous than I could ever hope to be. This is something he volunteered for, not something that was assigned to him. We both knew this day would come, but last summer when he told me he volunteered and he could go at any time, I guess deep down I always thought we would be lucky and this would never be something I'd have to deal with. The best thing I can do though is be strong, and not cry when I talk to him, because the last thing he needs when he's over there is to be worried about me when he's got to worry about himself and the others in his unit. On New Year's Eve Britt and I were getting ready to leave the party at his and Silas' apartment, he gave me the biggest hug and held my face in his hands and said, "I'm going to say 'I'll see you later' and you have to say it back to me, okay?" He had my face in his hands and was wiping away tears, and wouldn't let me go until I said it back to him. That was so hard because we don't know that. I know I'll see him before he goes to Iraq, but afterwards...That's what scares me so much. Then, after we left the party, Britt told me that Adam told her that she has to take care of me now because he won't be around to do it for a while. I've never had to say good-bye to a friend like this way before. Granted, people come and go in your life all the time, but there are just some friends few people are lucky to ever have: those who knows what you're thinking without you even saying a word. Adam is one of those friends and telling him good-bye, no matter for how long or short of a time, is going to be one of the most difficult things I will ever have to do.

"Come Home Soon"
SheDaisy

I put away the groceries
And I take my daily bread
I dream of your arms around me
As I tuck the kids in bed
I don't know what you're doin'
And I don't know where you are
But I look up at that great big sky
And I hope you're wishin' on that same bright star

I wonder, I pray

And I sleep alone
I cry alone
And it's so hard livin' here on my own
So please, come home soon

I know that we're together
Even though we're far apart
And I'll wear our lucky penny 'round my neck
Pressed to my heart

I wonder, I pray

I sleep alone
I cry alone
And it's so hard livin' here on my own
So please, come home soon

I still imagine your touch
It's beautiful missing something that much
But sometimes love needs a fighting chance
So I'll wait my turn until it's our turn to dance

I wonder, I pray

I sleep alone
I cry alone
Without you this house is not a home
So please, come home soon

I walk alone
I try alone
I'll wait for you, don't want to die alone
So please, come home soon

Come home soon
Come home soon

That's all I am asking for, that he comes home safe and sound.